Pubdate: Sun, 14 May 2006 Source: Toronto Star (CN ON) Copyright: 2006 The Toronto Star Contact: http://www.thestar.com/ Details: http://www.mapinc.org/media/456 ON BEING HOOKED ON DRUGS AND ESCAPING -- SING A SONG OF SMITHERMAN In Friday's Star, Ontario Health Minister George Smitherman admitted that for five years in the 1990s he was addicted to street stimulants. He said: "I feel like I've closed the door on it -- been there, done that, wish I hadn't, ain't going back, too much else to do." We thought that sounded like lyrics to a country song, so we asked versatile blues/roots songwriter and multi-instrumentalist Chris Whiteley to pen us a little ditty using Smitherman's words. It goes like this: The Courage to Come Back Courage is a word you hear, Almost every day You think of heroes saving lives, Or soldiers far away Sometimes the bravest deeds of all Don't end up on a plaque From deep despair, redemption's found The courage to come back It doesn't really matter Why I started in to use The pain I felt seemed far away Through a haze of drugs and booze Though each of us must overcome The struggles that we face For me, escaping chemically Was easy to embrace I kept up all appearances I made it in to work Though I was high much of the time I didn't go berserk My days were spent in agony Trying to look clean My nights were used to feed the flame Out on the party scene To look into the mirror And take an honest view Was probably the hardest thing I've ever had to do I knew how far I'd fallen And I knew I had to change That with help and self-forgiveness I could start to re-arrange Doctors, friends and family All rallied by my side I will say there were certain friends I had to leave behind. I feel as if I've closed the door Been there and done that too Wish I hadn't, ain't going back I've too much else to do. Chris Whiteley performs June 3 at Hugh's Room. See hughsroom.com for details. - --- MAP posted-by: Beth Wehrman