Pubdate: Sun, 11 Mar 2001
Source: Oregonian, The (OR)
Copyright: 2001 The Oregonian
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Author: Mark Porter,The Associated Press

DRUG TREATMENT HOME MARKS FIRST ANNIVERSARY

Half-Way Home And Its Founder Have Seen Rocky Times Since Opening But 
Continue To Help And Heal

BELLINGHAM, Wash. -- In the best of times, Half-Way Home founder James Marx 
watched with pride as strung-out junkies kicked their deadly heroin habit.

In the worst of times, an overtaxed Marx "dumpster-dived" at fast-food 
restaurants to eat, and suffered a drug relapse as a result of stress and 
the loss of state-sponsored medications to help him battle depression.

Nearly one year after opening the home, the newly sober 45-year-old 
Bellingham man reflected on the good, bad and ugly of trying to start a 
much-needed alternative treatment place for the society's most discarded 
population.

"Some of it has been absolutely worst stuff I've ever had happen in my 
life," said Marx, sitting at the kitchen counter of the home he cobbled 
together with local residents' cash, in-kind donations and his 
determination. "Then there were parts that were gifts from God."

Last April, when the home officially opened, Marx and others were just 
trying to find enough money to pay for much-needed improvements to the home 
and keep up with bills and food.

But Marx -- and the all-volunteer board he selected to oversee the home's 
operation -- didn't realize how hard it would be to maintain planning and 
keep up with the day-to-day operation of a place serving an unpredictable 
population.

Although the community came to the home's aid several times, Marx himself 
was worn down by the constant need to prop up the fledgling project.

He had to issue drug tests, kick out people who were using -- and try to 
drum up support. At one point, Marx had to "go begging" to donors to pay 
monthly utility bills and the mortgage. He also tried to help get 
improvements to the home, including plumbing work, a more efficient 
hot-water system and electrical work.

In the middle of the day-to-day scrounging, Marx learned that the state was 
going to cut him off from prescriptions that help steady his long bout with 
depression. On top of that, he was going through a divorce.

When things were at their worst, Marx and other house dwellers would arrive 
at Bellingham's Kentucky Fried Chicken at night and take the bagged, unused 
food discarded in a big trash can, he said.

Eventually he simply went to his upstairs room at Half-Way Home and used 
prescription drugs to try to "self-medicate," he said. He also dabbled in 
heroin and cocaine -- doing each of the illegal drugs once, he said.

In August, friends encouraged him to seek help. He decided to go into 
treatment in September through a state-sponsored program.

It was his third relapse since he started doing drugs as a youngster. Marx, 
himself a drug and alcohol counselor and former Whatcom County tobacco 
prevention advocate, knew he had to become sober again if he were to take 
control of the home he fought so desperately to start.

But coming back to Half-Way Home after undergoing intense treatment was 
another test of strength, he said.

While he was gone, the home lacked financial leadership and was in 
disarray. He returned to a $950 electric bill, a $350 gas bill and a $400 
telephone bill in his name, he said.

Marx quickly started looking for a job to catch up with the payments and 
keep the home from closing. One positive was that the former owner of the 
house let supporters pay back loans as they could, Marx said.

Then Marx landed a counseling job at a Monroe correctional facility, 
earning enough in a month of work to get the home back on track by paying 
utilities and other outstanding bills, he said.

The focus of the house also changed, he said. Instead of helping those 
specifically trying to kick the immediate effects of heroin use, supporters 
are now using the home as a safe haven before and after treatment.

Marx is a changed man, said Kathy Dube, a house volunteer. "I have more 
faith in where James is at now than when we started this," she said. "James 
has got it under control."

Marx needs to create a board of community members with strong leadership, 
not just recovering addicts, said Whatcom County Sheriff Dale Brandland.

Brandland learned about Marx's drug relapse when Marx approached Trillium 
Safe Community Foundation asking the foundation to reinstate funding, he said.

"Once an addict, always an addict," Brandland said. "Just because someone 
relapses, you don't just pull the rug out from under them. We certainly 
recognize the value of what's going on."

Marx said he knows that his relapse created rumors about the home and put 
into question its strict policy against drug use in the home. He has even 
created a new admission policy that is strictly policed, under which those 
who "use" are forced to leave.

At no time did Half-Way Home become a "shooting gallery," he said, contrary 
to gossip circulating in the community after his relapse.

He has extended an open invitation for anyone -- including law enforcement 
and state corrections officers -- to tour the home and see what people are 
doing first-hand. Few people have taken him up on the offer, he said.

If they could just see the way the home is helping people, they would see 
how worthwhile a place it is for the community, he said. "It has been an 
intense year," Marx said. "We're in better shape than we were in before and 
we've helped a lot of people."
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